Roots and self growth

 To want to stay involved in my life putting myself first and not seeking validation from anyone is my goal. Life has been really kind in giving me many an opportunity to get to do that but it truly came after not knowing how to do so and slowly finding a way through through my inner truth and a supreme energy's protection to see my journey through safely in every step of the way.

I used to think that by scoring better grades, being more beautiful, having better health, getting words of support from my mother, and being encouraged by my peers, landing the right job, having a kid and so on  are all it takes to be on my life journey, but those were expectations too many and were not fully met with as it felt I could not meet my life half way through without all these coming to me to meet me the other half way. But the fact is that I am complete in myself as a creation of the supreme no matter what be my age, color, sex, caste, physical strength, mental health, material status and so on. I had stayed away from stepping on to the dais of my life waiting for the curtain to lift up from all these heavy, idealistic asks from others and kept living life by the sidelines as if I had deemed myself to do so.

What is truly within me shaping my life and giving me a core reason reason to live is not what I have gotten or how much I have lost, but how well connected am I with my honesty and sovereignty and that's been work in progress but something I have not lost sight of. 

It's how closer I inch towards this all preserving, all pervading supreme energy, it's that fulfilling - as if my brokenness has meaning, my inner strength to survive through the old getting wiped off from my heart, and a newfound energy to embrace moment to moment and hopefully will reflect in future as the future is nothing but a beautifully connected set of todays happening and it's not a predictable loop like we make it to be, but a wave of highs and lows that we bring ourselves together to navigate and go with the flow.

Our ability to trust ourselves and our inner truths is a courageous act and holding on securely is the source of our roots and self growth.