I am not sure what is better liberating, the truth of
one's own limitations, or the growing light on one's enormous ignorance over
such self limiting habits and attitudes?
Liberation is real, is true in its
every fiber. The sensations of discomfort and pleasure that a purely breath
centric channeling that the nostrils open one's awareness to dies a quick death
as the breath gets deviated to impermanent transcendence of this existential
living. Pleasure and pain arising and passing away as waves through Vipassana's
art of living is as real as one's breath and as true as one's idea of how to
swim through life every day and through every situation but without being
overwhelmed by its depth.
We each have died a million deaths
not just with crushed egos and wounded spirits, but without knowing how to stay
in the now and to be hopeful for tomorrow.
Egos as we meditative souls are
aware is an exaggerated version of what we expect of others and what we think
we are supremely full of. The more we have gotten protective over guarding our
egos to facilitate our habits, our selective attitudes towards learning new
things from anyone irrespective of age, hierarchy, or life experience, besides
the environments that we grow from, beliefs, faiths, likes, prejudice and so on
which shape our personalities to accommodate ego from the outer mind. This
feeling of being 'I am ...' is a reassurance to a transient life, a ripple in
the constant waves.
The waves will ebb and rise as they
are supposed to, undeterred by the outside disturbances, and the image of one's
ego centric world. This passing away of an 'I' from one shore to another,
angry, weary and hurt and feeling small all over again at the depths of this
subconscious ocean could happen to the destined few who wish to swim the waters
of liberation unafraid and totally surrendered to the lifeguard called
Vipassana.
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