As above so below

Faith is the way to be, faith is the way ahead. While fear can create a huge illusion of things not being under control and hence derails us from facing future for what it is. Maybe there's a lot of comfort in not knowing the future and wanting everything to be as good or even better as how it is in the present. And that would happen if the trail of memories from the past were not immersed in other people's emotionally volatile and fearful projections. This sort of a fake disconnect with the present as if nothing affects it from the past and just repressing the past memories is enough to look towards future and expect everything would work out just fine is how I tuned my life into until faith came into the picture.

The truth underlying the roots of faith was the empowerment I had needed to remain fully grounded into who I truly am rather than wanting to assume a falsified image of who I wanted to be. Truth didn't give fake assurances that it would protect me from the harsh realities of life but rather made me open up, accept, sit with it, and simply be. It was not comforting at all. But I grew more through going deeper, fought with my acquired false beliefs (and still do), and was afraid to embrace a newer, emerging version of me. I wanted to separate the self realizing with who I had gotten used to and put it in boxes of then and now and how responsible I had gotten to being where I got to be which was egoistically satisfying but didn't make it to the cut as much as raw truths did.

Because the truth was I was never as open and wanting to receive any discomfort to want to look deeper into myself, about who I really was and wanted my image of being an adaptive,, quiet, people pleasing, repressed, inner voice suffocated person which was shown in parts to people outside and the unpleasant, very realistic emotions and feelings were buried alive within me.

I lost any sense of goals to creating my life experiences of who I really wanted to be and rather was aiming at who I should be and specially when validated by others.

How true we are in our efforts to being brave in taking responsibility for our lives and living committed to it as an act of self discipline, self love, and connections to creativity in whatever shape or form is a beautiful fresh start for me to  begin with. 

God or supreme energy beyond our powers as a human being is unlimited and our understanding of what we truly can realize, can work towards to become when we deep dive for our inner truths is a reflection of God's blessing upon us. As above, so below is grace that looks kindly from above and the ability to receive love with faith and without fears is how we can reciprocate from being on earth. The freewill to process this language of love is what sets us free to be ourselves as we learn to surrender what holds us back. How genuinely we surrender and believe in Him is how we can feel His compassion coming through to us.